This is it - probably the last time I will be posting as a mommy to just one child. Tomorrow (Friday) is my scheduled c-section, and unless something crazy comes up by tomorrow afternoon I will finally meet my new little baby.
I'm excited and nervous.
Yesterday I went in for an information session at the hospital. The meeting was incredible. It was a "pre-op" appointment, and since I've never had surgery, except for minor thumb surgery (!) I have no idea if this is routine or not. But ... it went really well. I had a zillion questions answered and I found out what to expect. I had the full surgery explained to me, and the nurse who I met with really put my mind at ease.
She also reassured me, like so many people have, that there is no reason that some of the stuff I experienced with Doodle (lack of bonding, ppd, etc) will happen again. We talked about all the resources available. It really put my mind at ease.
I fully expect to be in pain from the c-section, but I'm pretty confident I can handle it.
So now we do the last minute preparations. We finally finished decorating the baby's room. I bought a beautiful chandelier and Phat Daddy set it up. I love it! I've done laundry, and I have to make a few changes to all of the stuff I have packed. And I'm spending the day chilling. I'm going to read and watch tv and maybe doing a little cleaning.
I think I'm going to go to the mall and get a few little gifts for Doodle because he's told me numerous times he'll miss me. I'm thinking I'll get him a little present for each night I'm away. And, I know he'll be fine. I think I'm more worried about him than I am about me!
I probably won't be posting here for a few days. If you came here from my other blog, I've unlocked it for awhile (I took some stuff off it) and I'll be posting pictures there. So, check back over there if you are interested. I don't think anything will be posted till Saturday or Sunday though.
So wish me luck for a few things.
- That this baby will be healthy (Doodle got rushed to the nursery)
- That we will bond, and if we don't that I know enough to tell someone or that someone around me picks up on it and does something
- That Doodle is okay with the big adjustment. Yes, I know it will be hard
- That the surgery goes well
- And, of course, that this time I get a baby who sleeps. (a girl can dream, you know!!!)